I am currently in search of what it means to have a "career".
Originally, I had given up on everything that I've worked so hard and sacrificed everything for, because I have been demoralized so much that I can't enjoy my passion. I have since realized this is not the way and would forsake what it meant for those before me who paved the way for us to carry on.
I am now in pursuit of mutual advancement between myself, and potential clients or employers.